:)
long time no journal :( !
reading over my last entry's i laugh to see what kinda stuff i was dealing with...im writing my second semester midterms, almost done my first year in university and i've never had so much stress in my life until this year, but i've never met such amazing friends until this year. Seperating from my old friends really defined to me who was really my friend and who was just my aquaintence...mudered the spelling ;)
looking forward for a summer vaca of 4 months, and even starting my second year in university. i've learned so much about how i learn and im so motivated now to look forward with life, it's nice.
i met this guy here too, not at my school, but in the city, i like him a lot, he likes me, he's sweet.

currently listening to some justin timberlake haha i'm in the dancing mood! friday night yo! and i'm home, but thats ok, i'm EXHAUSTED from a crazy week and im spending the weekend in the library with a fine piece of eyecandy haha
OHHHH!!
their was this competiton btwn canadian universities, whoever voted the most won a concert, death cab for cutie!!!! :D and some tickets were given away as prizes to voters, and one of my best friends won and he's taking me :)!!! i'm SOO excited to see them!! SOOO SOOO amazing!!!!!! <3 hahaha my camera broke in the summer though, so i need something by then!!!!!!!! eeee :D
anywho! im going to sleep now :)

josieeee !

josephine_eva@hotmail.com

soo...
well i am sitting here, random summer evening
heat wavee!
and i love it to be honest, because their isn't 10 feet of snow on the ground, i have no class and no papers to write...
im finally a graduate too
grade 12 is over for me and universtiy will start is about 7 weeks and i am scared shitless
so much work and what if i screw up... its a big deal here...its so much money and my future and bla bla
whatever, im still on summmer vaca!
ive been working every day of summer so far with 1 day off! but thats ok, im making a lot of cash to buy stuff and soon i'll be done and have about a month of freedom in the city! beach and shopping, typical girl! :)
and him
omg
him <3
its gonna be hard with him, for obvious reasons of age...the rents aren't going to favour that at all, so we wont tell them...yet...ah...i dont wanna talk about it :P
at least im not working at the salvation army this summer
goshh, last summer, that was hell, that place was fuccking sick, i have the funniest stories though !!
PROM! was the best night ever, i had a hott date from anthoer school and everyone was like "oo la la!" hahah and i know i looked the best too, i was freaking gorgeus!!
oh my, well, im going to cuddle in bed with my book
nightt xo

VIVA LA VIDA! ! ! ! ! ! ! <3 <3

So, so you think you can tell
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skys from pain.
Can you tell a green field
From a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade
Your heros for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange
A walk on part in the war
For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls
Swimming in a fish bowl,
Year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have we found?
The same old fears.
Wish you were here.

heyy !
so im pretty good right now
this hotttie from another school wants to go to prom with me
i said mabey
i should have been more...forward and been like YES! haha
but i suppose will talk soon
he'd look reallly good in my pictures and to walk in with =)

coldplays new stufff is amazinggg, so excited its finally here!

i got hit super hard in rugby practice today by my best friend, she was suppose to get by me and i was suppose to tackle her and well i did but she was going sooo fast and when she hit me i didn't move with her so it was like a car hitting a wall, that walll being me..anyways, it hurt!! everyone laughed, it was hilarious and i survived but man, i got a nasty bruise out of it and my shoulder reallly hurts, its the one i use to go into contact too and we have a game tmrw :S coach was pretty impressed i actually stopped her though haha it made such a noise too haha

i'll survive, but wow, it was a rough hit haha

anyways, i should go to bed while its early :)
long day tomorrow !
peace out ! !

so its safe to stay im done with him
i felt i had to end everything because i have to stay focused
my grad is coming up, but i have MAJOR exams before that
and i have a lot of work left. i can't always be thinking about him, worrying about him and bla bla, so im just stopping
and its really not that hard ! i suppose i wasn't into him like i though, but, what can you doo ?!

anywho, so big rugby game tomorrow, we gotta win the next 3 to advance, and we've beat these teams before so it looks nice :)
i found out a bunch of girls on another high school team are afraid of me haha, i was like whatt?! im not that bad, i've had my moments but i mean i mostly play clean and fair...mostly..sometimes..hahaha

oh my, i have a stupid physics test friday, im not reaaddy
im never ready, i'll go study a bit now and i'll study on the bus tmrw to the game...eff...i hatee physics, and calc.. haha

so my tunes of choice have been Violet Hill by coldplay
and im getting back into zeppelin, its seems like zeppelin is my summer music, which is cool i suppose, i appreaciate the music more because i don' listen to it all the time :)

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depressing huh...
well their is no point in writting if no one reads...
bye bye

so thank god this week is over
im ready to crash in my bed
im not going anywheres tonight..just me, my jammies, and bed
mabey a quick timmies run haha

my life is being absorbed by calculus, physics and rugby
i don't mind too much, the part that bugs me the most is the lack of sleep...

anways, i've been listening to damian rice lately
i think im inlove with his beautifull voice
and his lyrics are sooo..relate-able!
i guess a trip to the cd store is in my near future =)

thats all for now !
have a lovely weekend and SLEEP people!!
josephine_eva!hotmail.com
bye bye!

ok, so i know this sounds silly
but i wanna know what it would be like to be addicted to something
like physicall needing a hit of this or sip of that..and once you got that hit or sip then thats feeling...
i know its silly and im not going to become a drug addict or alcoholic
buti just wanna know the feeling of being comforted by something like that..like the rush...
i am addicted to him though :)

now that i sound like an idiot..


muaha!

anyways, hells kitchen is on !
i'll journal soon !

soo my newmotto
eff physics haha
im soo tired, i had a long day
but rugby was nice
it always is =)

we only got 4 min..
yea i love that tune haha
madonna and jt are fineee together!!

i misss him like crazy haha

i am getting to excited for prom
i am in love with my dress, i have everything ready
i just need a date for the walk in part and then screw it,
partay!!!!

well i just updated the mp3 player and new additions were buckcherry-sorry
4 minutes-madonna and jt
moved around the pink floyd section and added a few zepp tunes
im all set for the rest of the week =)
anywho, im exhausted, so off to bed i go !
josephine_eva@hotmail.com
hit me up !

sooo..well, i have a physics test tmrw...first..and i know i'm not ready and i know this time it won't work out for me..i fucked around this whle semester so far (only in physics) and now its here to bite me in the ass and it's going to bit hard
but i think i can pull something decent...not good, but somewhat acceptabe

and darn..HE has been so busy im starting to think he's not really caring anymore, which normally would be fine by me but this time i think im really into this...

time will tell

anywho, i just felt like getting some of that out
i have 1 hour and 20 min left of phsyics before bed
pray for me!! haha =)

josephine_eva@hotmail.com
hit me up!
night !

well
he's not talking very much anymore
i guess i understnad how he feels
but i don't feel that
i still need him

well one day things will work themselves out
i suppose
they always do
school, work
relatiosnships?

hmm..

and i guess that i just don't know
=)

well i got gotta keep myself level headed and not let myseld get distracted...i can't waste time on a "could be"

bob dylan coming to a city near me...yeaaa!

well tonight im going to a party but i should be home a bit early...i have another looong badminton practice, last one before districts, i really want to advance so i gotta work hard!!
then rugby is going to take over my life
thank you god! haha

anyways
im going to nap then gget ready
josephine_eva@hotmail.com

peace

hello =)
so once again i dug a hole
bio test first tomorrow
i guess i'll be fine, i always am...

matchbox 20..long day = love right now

and i miss him to death right now
i think he's a bit mad at me though
it actually hurts

oh my
so in badminton i made the sr girls signles spot which is amazing!! that makes me pro!! haha and my coach thinks i'll actually advance!! HAHAHA..you never know though!

rugby is starting and im soo stoaked
i neeeeeed to play
ahh im so ready for it

anywho
new email
josephine_eva@hotmail.com

had to get rid of the old one, it just sucked haha
night guys!!

so ive been digging the jet lately
good rock out tunes, just blast it when your home alone!

im pretty stoaked about the eagles concert this summer, i know its not until august but man, its gonna be sweet!!

anyways, i got accepted to my #1 university, dal. im still really excited but i guess its easy too get accepted, the hard part starts in the fall...

i just wanna say boredude's journal rocks, really good stuff, i'm definatly one of his stalkers (;

well i should go and try and get some stuff done
jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com
you know where im at =)
peacee!

why does he sleep in the living room now?!
my bed used to be good enough for him
silly cat
is everything going to follow this trend of hating me?!

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fuck, its just a cat!



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I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints - The sinners are much more fun
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high school is clearly overrated
the friendships are fake
the trends are lame
i want out so much
but i guess i can't leave quite yet.

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i want to spend all my time with him, but we don't talk anymore, he says he's busy and i say i am too, but i should make an effort to visit him over break, i really do miss him...

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why can't i just sleep for hours and hours!!
i've been so tired out but i have no reason to be, i'm getting fat because i don't exercise and school is falling because i just don't want to do it! just fuck it, fuck it alll.

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on a much happier note my brother is coming to visit me from alberta!! i get to spend time with him and i just miss him soo much! we actually got close because of facebook! i just love him =) i can talk to him forever about the parents and he knows exactly what i mean! he's too cool!!

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i'm really frigging nervous for university too, i'm going to have an amazing summer with "him" <3 and working full time at the job i love and i'll go to the beach soo many times and just have that perfect summer, then i'll start my new life in my new location, ready to party and ready to study..HAHA right, if me and "him" get close when i move their, well he's going to be a distraction from school and he'll have to meet my parents then and well...for reasons they may not approve, he's a really great guy, but he's older...and well, you see, this is very compicated
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why don't i just date a guy from school?! that would be easier, but their all morons anyways... :P

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thanks for the ear..well the eye, i can just blab in this thing forever!
peace out!

This journal is marked as being private.

FUCK I HATE THAT SO MUCH
why would you do that?!
and shame on you songmeanings for posting the link!
booo :(

hey yoo!
so guess what josie is currently doing?
downloading yoga music
i need to clear my mind
hahaha
my secret though, friends and fam CANNOT know, i'll look like a nerd but my doctor and guid. coun. both thought i should try because i went to my doctor about stress headachs and i went to the guid. coun. for help with university app. help and was stressed..so the answers i got were meditation..i'll let you know if it works lol

so happy valentines day!i gave out valentines to all my friends and i got a bunch, gosh i love this day, you do not need a bf!! you can love your friends and family!!!

anywho
the cat needs a feeding!
these are my thoughts for today!
peace out guys!!
xoxo

SHOUT OUT to wishing for you's journal
i relate like 10000%
good stuff

anyways this is such a good song, from the OC which i now love, yes, i used to piss on that show, but i love it haha good music!! i posted the lyrics at the end :)

anywho children, i'm gone to bed
skipped my homework
mabey tomorrow will be a snowday?
god i hope so

jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com
add it but only if your cool :)
peaceeee out


Spoon - The Way We Get By

We get high in back seats of cars
We break into mobile homes
We go to sleep to 'Shake Appeal'
Never wake up on our own

And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
And that's the way we get by
To where we get by

We go out in stormy weather
We rarely practice discern
We make love to 'Some Wierd Sin'
We seek out the taciturn

And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
To the way
That's the way we get by
That's the way we get by

We found a new kind of dance in a magazine
Tried it out it's like nothing you ever seen
You sweet talk like a cop and you know it
You bought a new bag of pot, said let's make a new start

And that's the way to my heart
To the way to my heart

That's the way we get by
To the way we get by
That's the way we get by
The the way we get by
To the way
And that's the way we get by
And that's the way we get by

We get high in back seats of cars
We put faith in our concerns
Fall in love to 'Down on the Street'
We believe in the sum of ourselves

I said that's the way we get by
To where we get by
And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
And that's the way we get by
To where we get by
The way
And that's the way we get by
And that's the way we get by

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what youre sayin.
When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.



a-freaking-mazing
better than the beatles
way better
fuck the beatles
most of their fans are posers nowadays
13 year old girls who buy the shirts...
posers

forever floyd


peacee

what if you should decide if you don't want me their in your life
that you don't want me their in your life....

first day of second semester
that fucking bitch is all of my classes and on spare
shes some fat girl who thinks she's sooo cool because she wears fake hollister clothes
god highschool is uselessy dramatic and i hate drama

so im just sitting here, did all my homework, had some soup, told my mother off on the phone :P
pretty good day!
i hate the weather soo much though

i guess i just need a lot of coconut rum and a good party

and a finee boy would be lovely
but i'm certainly not desprate


i always feel so tired and down, i hope im not depressed, that would make me worse if i know...
i just get so frustrated with everything, and i get so tired with everything and i just want to stay in bed all day and skip class and work...
i can't stop thinking, my mind is always going, its like a constant high, but a bad high...
i just need some good floyd tunes, sun dresses and flip flops and the summer <3

and i will try to fix you...

ok, i'm going to stop being depressing, i hate it, i hate showing emotions..i feel weak when i do, i hate crying in front of people, ugh, i feel silly

you and me are floating on a tidal wave...together,
you and me are drifting into outer space...


well, anyone else up for some highschool venting?!
add me then, just don't be creepy or pervy and i will not meet you somewheres hahaha

jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com
silly email, but i was 12....

anywho, i'll go bitch somewheres else
thnaks guys, if you read this far lol
peacee out

So Class begins tomorrow, my final semester!!
physics, calculus and biology
lord be with me!

exams went ok and im done english class!
i just want out
out of this town
i want to reform!
ok,i'll shut up!

but their is a hockey game own and montreal is currently is owning!
so i'll catch ya on the flip side of tomorrow!
peacee!

I dive in at the deep end
You become my best friend
I wanna love you but I don't know if I can

Just in that coldplay mood tonight <3
i just kicked my brother and his whale gf out, i was like "if you don't like my music loud, LEAVE! i have an exam tomorrow!
he left and here i am on the computer :)

my final exam is tomorrow actually, i'm not ready but in a couple of hours i'll be great. i love chem 12! my teacher is super hot too, the other day he was passing exams out for pre cal, i was writting that one, and he winked at me then smiled...god i was on cloud 9 that whole exam, is that sick in anyway?! he's young..er lol i love going to his office for extra help ahahahaha!!!!!
i probably look like such a weirdo now :P

i get to go the city on friday and have a hardcore weekend! i'm meeting up with all my friends i have't seen in ages and drinking with my usual ladies! i need it after these exams!! i should probably tell HIM i'll be in the city because he really wants to see me, but i'm too scared and i don't know why :S

I dive in at the deep end
You become my best friend
I wanna love you but I don't know if I can

ohh my, i just don't think it would work, well not now at least, mabey when I go to university next year will be closer...but thiers so much more to it! ah!

i hate the winter, the weather makes me depressed, i hate the icky snow so much. i wish it was summer break, i could sleep all the time, go to the beach, work...i wish i could go back to the days when summer vacation was all about biking in the mud and running around the neighbourhood alll day long, i hate responsibilities. thiers such an importance to being idle!!

anywho!
my mother is calling now, sjhe probably knows i'm procrastinating...
i'll update you guys later! <3
peacee!!

So my pre cal final is tomorrow and well, I've studied, all day but I kind of wasted my evening..procrastination sucks big time
I think i'll do ok, i have to, scholarships and all that depend on me doing well...
you know it really sucks being a kid now
i'm so in love now and i hate myself for getting into this, but well, we all know HIM, he came over the other night and we had fun, we were home alone and watched a movie really late and fell asleep in my room, well sure it was nice, kind of awkward, but for some reason i think we should just stay friends...
ugh, i just want to have fun!
anywho, i've been listening to aerosmith all evening which is nice lol i actually heard on the classic rock radio station that classic rock makes you smarter..."we don't need know education...'' <3 haha
gosh i am really loving this journl thing, i love reading other ones, i fell I relate to so many of them!!
keep it up everyone :)
peacee!!

well
i'm talk to HIM
he doesn't know he doesn't deserve mee..
i'm such a silly girl
but anywho...
exams start monday and i haven't cracked a book...
soo sleepy!!
seriously though, i've made it through highschool quite fine with my slacking!!! :) hahaha
i'll cram, get an 80 make honors and get some scholarships and la lala!
but i want the big scholarships, imagine if i did my work...
gah
i gotta tell him goodnight
i gotta go to bed
im skipping tomorrow to
gah
peacee

shout out to the last journal i read, it was good, i felt..the same, about messing up and being jealous of the perfect and all that
i know how you feel buddy...

well hello !
my weekend happened to be very bla once again, i fought with my dad over the 500 dollar prom dress...
i facebooked the school bitch saying sorry for being a bitch and i do believe i killed her with kindness, no response yet but i'm not really waiting...
i'm pumped...rugby season is starting reallly soon with running!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! eee! i love to run :) hahaha
gosh exams are a week away, soon i'll be entering my final semester of highschool, of the public education system
i couldn't be happier!!!!!!
im awaiting the party after exams, im going to get so sloshed, i need it!

this creeper keeps talking to me, he found me on facebook and he claims to "like" me, he lives in another country for gosh sakes, so i just humor myself with him
i'm such a bitch, it's not like all the guys are after me, but the ones that are..well i play them like a fiddle, i flirtm facebook them, msn them alll the time..i love the attention but don't like the boys, i wish i wasn't such a bad person like that..but meh!
thier is this one guy though, well, he dosen't know me like he thinks he does you see...super complicated, but i know he dosen't deserve mee, he thinks i'm his sweetie, hes amazing.

enough of thata foolishness now, lets get realistic here josiee!

all evening i've been enjoying the sounds of oasis-(whats the story) morning glory
coldplay- a rush of blood to the head
and the killers-sawdust
fine listeneing for mee!! i need to rediscover my love for floyd now, its been very limited lately since i've discovered oasis. but floyd, i grew up with pink floyd! thier always #1!

move away, hard times don't come until tomorrow (8)

beep beep
i gotta go to sleep, i worked and did homework all frigging day, but i'm happy.

peace
love
josiee

Well, yep! I'm back!
oh gosh, i got my pre cal test back, 85! It's ok!
so much homework but screw it...english essay can burn and i want to listen to apple bottm jeans..why, its funny :)
my cat and i are currently war-ing over the computer chair, naturally i win :)
i really wish it was warm ot so i could go running, but nope, my trainer at the gym is amazing but way to intense..i'll just stay at home and get fat :P
aww gosh, my kitty is giving my and my music the look haha
the prom dress im dying for is like 500 bucks and teh rents are moving...but i want it sooo and b/c i can't have it i want it more <3

aplle bottom jeans, boots with the furr
oh god, everyone would look down on me if they knew :|

my brother is gone to the whales house, he wants to bring her here but i'll be a bitch to her..she started it, shes a rude cow to me. she's only nice to me when she's talking about my brother, she's called a toaly of 21 times in the last 2 days...(my phone keeps track :P)
have you ever watched the movie fatal attraction?! thats crazy bitch?! yea, thats her...
god i love this, i loveee venting :) i don't think anyones going to read this far but meh! my little secret!

another to add to the tiny pile i'm making <3

gawsh, im not feeling to great, mabey i should go to bed now and skip class and work tomorrow! not bright really but whateves, i'll go to class and then go to work...its not even my friday, the fat biotch who was suppose to work my night couldn't b/c she complains sooooooooooo much, she's so lazy so my boss, thinking i always save the day, calls me and i stupidly say yes, not thinking about my chem study date or eng essay i SHOULD be doing instead, but im shur if it was such a problem, i;d be working on it now, besides, like the facebook group say, im an honours student but i never do homework and do assignmentts btwn classes :P


yea, almost 10pm, im going to bed early, 7:30 comes earl :(
peacee !

anyways...so i have't journaled to you people in quite sometime...but honest to gosh i check this site out like almost every day!
grade 12 year is flying by but everyday feels like such a drag...i finally did good on a pre cal test, i think, my teacher is a bitch though...a whale
i hate my brother's girlfriend, she totally tries to be my friend and talk about girly things to look good for my brother but i just brush her off and ignore her. shes a whale.

i love my secrets to death and it makes me happy

university will be insane next year, so many plans, so many people, i know i'l have fun but for some idiot reason i chose to takke science, why? for my parents, they say they'd be happy if i decided to be a hobo as long as it was my choice and it's what i wanted...when i suggested community college my mother was like "your not going to be driving a bmw with a community college education"...show's how much she knows, just wait until i flunk out of uni, thier paying tuition :P
well thiers no specail boy to go on about. so scratch that
loving oasis right now, so greart! and coldplay..im really getting into the old stuff by these lovely boys <3
oh mabey i do have some boy talk, i have yet another creepy stalker...he's pretty braindead, and mute, he sounds like a girl and it creeps me out, i ignore him too. you know, he's like a whale too.

yep, im a teeneage girl for shur, just read all my rantings! lol
im really a nice kid but the good kids gotta let it out somewhere.
mabey i'll remember this and write soon! but i gotta jet!
peacee! :)
xo

if your a ranter IM me :)
jay-zsugar17@hotmail.com
no creepers allowed !

Yesss!! here i am to tell u allll about my concert expirience!! IT WAS AWESOMMMMEEEEEE!!!!! austrailian pink floyd sounded just like the real thing, the music was like it was fr an actual floyd cd and even though you cant make the voices the same i swear one guy who sings roger waters parts sounded just like him!! and they had the pig and a kangaroo cuz its an austrailian cover band lol but it was reallly good, worth every penny and more!!! they had the lasers and the lights and they had a frigging sweet set list and omg i could go on forever!!

if you ever have the opportunity to see this band and you are a pink floyd fan, GO SEE IT!! amazing show!!! u have to go!!

anyways, heart u all!
shine on you crazyyy diamond!
JoSIe

**If you are a big floyd fan, you will probably understand what i just typed up lol!

omg ok, well, tomorrow im going to see austrailian pink floyd. Their a floyd cover band, suppose to be realllly good though!! they played for david gilmour, and played with rick wright and gilmour at daves 50 birthday party in 1996. so im prettttty excited for that. actually realllly excited to be in the same room with someone who has been in the presence of pink floyd, talked to them and jammed with them, IM FREAKING OUT!! hahahaha. i almost went to see guns n roses to but i picked aus. pink floyd over. i reallly wanted to see axl rose though but tickets sold out tooo fast and gnr only played for like 45 min.........

ok, ok, ok, ill shut up, i dont think anyone will read this far but if you do your special for doing so!! i love reading journals on songmeanings, i can relate to soo many!!

anyways, heart you alll sooooooo much and ill probably post an entry after the concert to tell you how good it was or wasnt!! lol
bye bye
lotsaluv
JoSIe