so this is it huh? the end of another year. well, thank you for the ups and downs. thank you for showing me that what lies in the heart and in the soul are not always what is found in the words and actions of others. observation is underrated. understanding is underrated. i still love him. my heart still aches when i see him. "how can you be friends with someone you like for all your life?" of cos you can. its just not easy, thats all. i hope 2005 will bring some light to Sheeed. i hope 2005 will bring more joy and happiness to Teeee. and to my dearest Zat, i hope he finds whatever it is that he has always been looking for. and to myself, may i find it in me to be closer to Allah. may 2005 be a better year, for all. for all. amin.