i've always dreamed about finding true love; someone whom i could spend the rest of my life with. i never bother setting out to seek out though because i believe love just happens, it's never found and it never finds you. it's mutual; that's the best way i can put it. these are all just my beliefs, of course. when i think of finding and maintaining love, i'm thinking idealistically. i just sat down to think about it realistically and it just doesn't sound as appealing or as romantic. i'm still in high school, i'll be in 10th grade this year... let's say i do find some great girl and date her all throughout high school, which would be pretty challenging in itself. after that though, you have to worry about college which can end the relationship anyway, getting split up due to different colleges. but, yet again, through some sort of miracle, we end up at the same colleges or colleges very close by each other. plausible enough. at this point we might have moved in together and having a place to live = paying bills and paying for living expenses. so that means we are probably both working a job... so we've got a job and we've got college, but yet we still have to make room for each other. it just sounds like something else to attend to, something else to keep you busy and make life even more hectic. so then, through a lot of hard work and perseverance (and a shit load of luck) we both make it through college together. at this point, we're probably both considering a better full time job and moving into a house as opposed to our current apartment. i mean, what's the point of falling in love (noticed i said finding love, not dating) in high school or even college? i think it sounds like you're just setting yourself up for failure. i dream about finding the right girl every now and then, but thoughts like this just make me want to stay alone forever sometimes (or at least until after college). and life doesn't get any easier then, you've still got bills and work. so it's just as busy... in the back of my mind, i'm still afraid of getting hurt by someone. i think i'm gonna play a game now so i don't have to think about these thoughts anymore.