i might as well write in here again, maybe i'll get some enjoyment out of it. it's a sunday night and i'm alone like usual. i don't care being alone though, i actually like it. i'm not too terribly shy or antisocial or whatever you wanna call it but i tend to judge people i meet and label them as stupid or vapid before even talking to them. it's not that i think i'm the shit or that i'm super smart, it's just it seems everyone i meet is dumb, and i don't feel it's ever gonna change. hopefully someone will prove me wrong. it's like no one is open anymore. my friend spent the night last night. one of my other buddies was supposed to come to but he didn't have a ride. yeah. i have to mow grass tomorrow which is a drag kinda but it's an easy 20 bucks. NOTICE: some of my arguments are heavily based around some of qualiasoup's videos on youtube. you should go watch them, they are pretty fantastic. a lot my arguments are also aimed more at christians than any other religious group. anyway, the reason i'm writing this is because a lot of people have misconceptions of god, religion, and faith. it's not that god isn't real, it's just that i don't believe in him. i personally think he isn't real, but if he was i still wouldn't believe in him. a god that shows no proof of its existence yet demands you believe in him undoubtedly and devote your life to him and aspire to achieve the greatness of heaven but doesn't leave behind or show ONE BIT OF HIS EXISTENCE is a tool. oh, and to top it all off, he punishes you if you don't believe. thanks man, i couldn't see why someone wouldn't believe.. oh wait, yes i can. there's no evidence. there really isn't any solid evidence of his existence. you can say there is a bible, but there is other religious books equivalent to the bible that talk about god/s so why aren't they real? hell, what if i write a book about chuck norris being god so it can be real? it's a laod of shit. if you're a born again christian, it should make a CHANGE in your life. there should be a difference between you and your old self. i'm not talking about like, "oh yeah, i changed a lot.. i pray now and i believe in god and love god..." no. i mean a change in your LIFE. your whole life should be devoted to god, he demands it. nothing can be placed ahead of him. you can try to argue "well the bible isn't supposed to be taken literately, it's just guidelines and by modern standard not all of it should be followed!" but that has nothing to do with it, now does it? you half-hearted christians make me sick, you're no different from me except you just conform because you are too weak to think for yourself. religion in itself is just a sign of weakness, it's an imaginary friend for people of all ages and people all around the world. it's a big crutch for those who can't think for themselves so they have something to believe in. it will be the last thing to go extinct because it has been ingrained into our very world. the whole reason gods existed was to explain things we couldn't rationally explain. why are we still believing? i don't understand. so when you pray for something and it happens and there is no explanation as to why it happened, that doesn't mean god did it. it simply means there isn't any explanation for it. and when you try to say "oh no, god did it, i prayed for it!" okay... fine, but that is a contradiction. you can't explain it happening yet you can explain it, all because you prayed to god? also, other gods were made up before the christian god so why don't we pray to them? why not? hell, a lot of gods existed before the christian god so he can't possibly be real since he wasn't the first. there are billions of other gods out there, WHY NOT THEM? you have no reason, you have no faith, only excuse because you need to conform because you are too afraid to be different and that's the straight fucking truth. you know what, even though i do not believe in it whatsoever i extend my hand to ANY devoted christian. why? because it takes guts to be a DEVOTED christian, it's a different lifestyle and it requires devotion to a being that i feel is imaginary but whatever, i extend my hand because it is a rare occasion that i run into a true christian who is willing to actually follow their religion and not skip over the things they dislike. i'm gonna say 80% of christians, the main reason they believe, is because they are too afraid to believe in anything else or because they can't think for themselves. it's all conformity, it's a big illusion to make us feel like our life has purpose but it doesn't. our existence is meaningless. accept it and get over it.